Cupcake;

Cupcake! where do i even begin. me & you have been through hella shit. But what it all comes down too...I love you; You are my everything. i don't care WHO comes along...you are my everything. You are always the ONE person i can count on to be there for me no matter what it is. whether its a female issue or a family issue! i love you for thatt & so much more. I know you have a girlfriend; but i still can't help but wonder what it would be like if we were still together; In my head all the fights are over, things are amazing, we don't argue. But I guess we'll never know. I regret the way shit ended with us. The fighting that i constantly complained about only brought us closer like its continuing to do today. :) You will always be my cupcake; my baby; my boo; my boosky! haha even though you have BOOKOO females :] It's okay; i know i'll ALWAYS come first! You ain't even gotta tell me! :] Anyways, there are so many feelings that i have for youthat i've never explained becuase i either never had the chance or i never thought it would matter; But i guess it's time to get it all out! When i first met you, i wasn't looking fa a relationship. i was just tryna get over Stupid Ass. & you was tryna get over Cece; So idk if it was that we thought being together would make shit go better for us. but I ended up falling in love with you. even with all the arguing. I guess i was always all over you about the females because i was trying to show you that i cared; & i didn't want to lose you. but in the process i ended up losing you because of stupid arguments; I guess i didn't realize it until you actually left..but baby you were my world. & you still pretty much are. : When im dating someone, you're still what i think about. You're still who i wanna be with. you're still the one i want to be telling that i love. You're still everything. I know all this is like whoa. but i just felt like you really needed to know about how i was feeling. I mean you know i love you already. but i wanted to let you know in detail how i honestly feel. Is it wrong to say that there are days when I really wish your dad would get transferred here? I mean i know it would never happen but i really want it too somedays because then we could be together & you could be mine forever. I remember the EXACT way you asked me to be your gf. well techinally you aint ask you just SAID we was. haha but i wasnt complaining. & then i remember when we became "engaged" : I miss being able to say that we was engaged. haha when that happened i talked about that shit non-stop. :) because i was happy to say that i was gonna be your wife officially one day! i remember the day we actually planned out the kids situation. I remember everything. i still have aim history from us that I STILL go back & read now & then just to smile. I remember the day you called my house & said "BABY i love you" I was smiling for days; when i think about it i still smile! because thats how happy you made me :) Anyways; i guess im done pouring out my heart. Just know. you are amazing. & i'll be damned if i let anyone come between us; I love you Cuppycake!:)