Cupcake;

Cupcake! where do i even begin. me & you have been through hella shit. But what it all comes down too...I love you; You are my everything. i don't care WHO comes along...you are my everything. You are always the ONE person i can count on to be there for me no matter what it is. whether its a female issue or a family issue! i love you for thatt & so much more. I know you have a girlfriend; but i still can't help but wonder what it would be like if we were still together; In my head all the fights are over, things are amazing, we don't argue. But I guess we'll never know. I regret the way shit ended with us. The fighting that i constantly complained about only brought us closer like its continuing to do today. :) You will always be my cupcake; my baby; my boo; my boosky! haha even though you have BOOKOO females :] It's okay; i know i'll ALWAYS come first! You ain't even gotta tell me! :] Anyways, there are so many feelings that i have for youthat i've never explained becuase i either never had the chance or i never thought it would matter; But i guess it's time to get it all out! When i first met you, i wasn't looking fa a relationship. i was just tryna get over Stupid Ass. & you was tryna get over Cece; So idk if it was that we thought being together would make shit go better for us. but I ended up falling in love with you. even with all the arguing. I guess i was always all over you about the females because i was trying to show you that i cared; & i didn't want to lose you. but in the process i ended up losing you because of stupid arguments; I guess i didn't realize it until you actually left..but baby you were my world. & you still pretty much are. : When im dating someone, you're still what i think about. You're still who i wanna be with. you're still the one i want to be telling that i love. You're still everything. I know all this is like whoa. but i just felt like you really needed to know about how i was feeling. I mean you know i love you already. but i wanted to let you know in detail how i honestly feel. Is it wrong to say that there are days when I really wish your dad would get transferred here? I mean i know it would never happen but i really want it too somedays because then we could be together & you could be mine forever. I remember the EXACT way you asked me to be your gf. well techinally you aint ask you just SAID we was. haha but i wasnt complaining. & then i remember when we became "engaged" : I miss being able to say that we was engaged. haha when that happened i talked about that shit non-stop. :) because i was happy to say that i was gonna be your wife officially one day! i remember the day we actually planned out the kids situation. I remember everything. i still have aim history from us that I STILL go back & read now & then just to smile. I remember the day you called my house & said "BABY i love you" I was smiling for days; when i think about it i still smile! because thats how happy you made me :) Anyways; i guess im done pouring out my heart. Just know. you are amazing. & i'll be damned if i let anyone come between us; I love you Cuppycake!:)

Feelings as of 04/08/10;

It fucking amazes me how some females can fuck somebody over & not even give a flying FUCK after that. Talking about "baby i love you" "Baby, i care" BITCH GET THE FUCK! thank freaking God my gf aint fucking like that. Ugh. females these days. Talking about some you always gonna be wifey. Bitch get the FUCK outta my inbox with that shit. & believe me when you really have NOTHING better to do & certain shit won't get outta yoru head, you realize you have DEEP feelings about the situations. Like for instance, This female...I don't even know this females name....but I already know I don't like her. Kay so, she's my gf's ex. But thats SO not why I don't like her. But the fact that she is really doesn't help her case at all. But, thats so NOT the point here, why the fuck would you STILL continue to call & text someone if they been told you they DON'T want to fucking talk to you. Especially if you're gonna sit there & say shit like "oh lets get married" "Lets have kids" Bitch get the FUCK. She said she dont wanna talk to you, get the hell OVER it. What are you like 12? Sorry honey, stalking isn't attractive. Moving on, Back to the beginning topic, dude, why the FUCK would you tell someone you love them & that you care if you don't? Playing with peoples minds ain't fucking cool. Like really dude? & What pisses me off EVEN MORE....How all through a damn relationship they be like "Oh baby i love you, we gonna make it last forever,you gonna have my baby..blah blah blah" then when its all said & done, that female never meant shit & they was just a sideline hoe. bitch get fucking real. you aint a player. you never will be a player. SO PLEASE QUIT TRYNA BE ONE! It don't make you cool. omgee, another fucking issue, don't go from one to the next bitch & tell em both the same BULLSHIT ass lies. Like really, you can't be orginal & find some new corny ass lines? Females, when you get confronted about shit...DONT fucking deny it when you know your ass is fucking caught. example, DONT SIT ON THE FUCKING PHONE & TELL THE NEXT BITCH THE SAME DAMN LIES YOU TOLD YOUR EX....LITTLE DO YOU KNOW YOUR EX COULD BE ON THREEWAY! & DEF. DONT LIE ABOUT IT WHEN YOU GET FUCKING CAUGHT & CONFRONTED. Lying ain't gonna get you no fucking place at all. I swear to God it's so damn hard to find a REAL female in this world. Thank GOD i got one :) [ i love you baby ) Dude, another issue, You in a relationship with someone that's got a kid, okay you DON'T wanna claim their kid when ya'll dating, but the second they find someone else who WILL, you wanna claim that lil kid, NO! fuck that bullshit! If your fuck ass couldn't claim it while ya'll was together what the HELL makes you think you have the right to claim them when its OVER?!! Bitch get the FUCK outta here with the bull. Next, Females If you & the girl you dating break up, you claim you over it, then GET the FUCK over it. Take the bitch out ya phone. Take her pictures off your Myspace. GET THE FUCK OVER IT. ESPECIALLY IF YOU GOT A NEW FUCKING GF! Dude, that issue actually really pisses me off. Liek why the hell would you want to claim someone that is being an asshole to you? Okay i get it you love them, I really didn't have room to talk before about this subject, but hell I did what i had to do to get the FUCK over the girl; INCLUDING TAKING ALL HER SHIT OFF ANY & EVERYTHING! & Last but damn sure not the least, Why the FUCK after everything would you tell a female "You always gonna be Mrs. blah blah blah" Bitch. its not cool. If the girl ain't claiming the last name on her own apperently you did something wrong to make her NOT want to fucking claim it. ESPECIALLY if ya'll not even fucking together. Ugh. People are seriously fucking lucky im not downbad to the point where i would put their names into this shit. Fucking stupid ass females these days! Ughhhhh! Hmm. I feel better now. All my ANGRY feelings are out, Now on to the postive.

I love my gf! She's amazing! haha.
Thank freaking God she isnt petty like the rest of these females out here!
Other than the whole "ex" situation, everything with us is Fabulous!

But yeahhh thats about it :) Im outttt! <3