Something I hate more about my past relationship with you is knowing it's all my fault. Every time I think back to how happy we used to be, I always drag myself down and get really depressed. I can never take back the heartbreak I've caused myself, nor can I even get back your love, but one thing is I'm not giving up, I'm going to keep trying because I don't want you to be disappointed in me. I've always wanted a fairytale and to be in love, and to live "happily ever after". Knowing I'll never get a happy ending hurts, because It's MY fault, & I can never take any of it back as much I want to.

I think thats most of the reason why I'm depressed, and have insecurites, because I know you can find someone else, it's just that thought in the back of my head that there's so many other girls that would treat you better, & you are probably searching.

Yeah I have really bad insecurites, and I hate the fact that I'm scared 24.7. But I'm trying to be stronger but everytime I get stronger something always brings me down. I wish the things that happened with us, didnt happen. But i can't change the past. All i can do is focus on the future. & you can either be apart of it or not.