Maybe for once, Can i be happy?

I've been in the same mood for the past year, I haven't been myself, & I'm so prone to myself being this way that I don't know how to turn back.


I cried myself to sleep last night missing all the people that made me who i am today, all the people that I left so
I could find myself. Well the thing is, I haven't & my heart is still with you I still haven't found the way to take my heart back.
Truth of the matter is, part of my is happy you have it, & you dont even know it.

-Maybe it's just me, maybe I don't know how to be happy, because I've been a let down for such a long time, nothing I do is good enough for anyone, & I always dispoint people, but the thing is, I try to be the person people always saw me being, & now I don't even know who I am, I'm not independent & I always need someone there for me to fix my problems, & no one can, I bury my problems and feelings & pretend everything is okay, & now it's all catching up to me, & I don't know how to feel anymore.